07.31.2003 - 8:01 p.m.
Greasy, so very greasy right
now. Yes, oily and slick, glistening in the summer sun, unable
to cross my legs for slippage reasons. The ends of my hair are
heavy and dark. A thick bright sheen collects in the crooks of
Ah, the sheer ooziness of the
post-massage state. It's actually kind of gross. But I'm all
relaxed and melty and flushed with endorphins, so who cares if
I am also a buttered hunk of Crisco.
I've fine tuned the weekly
Workplace massage lately. Val, the freakishly strong masseuse,
specializes in a deep tissue sort of massage that I was enjoying
but occasionally felt the urge to sob brokenly in a holy-balls-that-fucking-hurts
way. I couldn't really predict what was going to hurt, either,
so I'd be all settling into my happy place when OWWOWOW! would
happen. I never felt like saying anything, though, because it
seemed too princessy and wussy to whine about it.
One night Val joined us for
post-work drinks, and she happened to mention that she really
wanted people to tell her what they liked and didn't like. So
the next time I had a massage, I asked if she could do lighter
pressure. "A little lighter?" she asked, to clarify.
"Um, a LOT lighter," I said, vaguely embarrassed.
And then I had The Best Massage
Ever. Ever since, every part of the hour-long session feels marvelous
and I can just completely zone out. The best part is, Val says
it's a lot easier on her, so she actually likes when she has
an appointment with me. That helps me feel less like a demanding
spoiled brat. A little.
I've completely gotten over
my nervousness about being naked at Workplace. The minute the
door closes behind me I'm whipping off my clothes and snuggling
happily under the covers. The only part that kind of sucks is
how gnarly I look afterwards - rumpled, oily, makeup gone, hair
awry. Like I've crawled out of an extremely satisfying
weekend sex marathon, you know?
Wait, maybe that doesn't suck.
Damn, I should have a cigarette prop just to complete the effect.
During a massage I try and
just let my thoughts drift towards pleasantries. If something
work-related creeps in, or some negative little annoying worry,
I shoo it away with my metaphorical broom, whapping it on its
metaphorical heinie. Today, I spent some time dreamily picturing
the dog park. Oh, dog park, I love you.
It's a nice thing, this rub-down.
Even if it does turn me into a glutinous human Exxon.
We're hitting the road tomorrow,
back to that slog down I-5 to get to John's family cabin for
the weekend. I went to the Bellevue library to look for a book
on CD to listen to in the car, and all I could find was a Stephen
King 12-hour-fest, From a Buick 8. I guess it's the one
damn King book I haven't read, so what the hell, we'll give it
I also ended up checking out
(non-audio) Palahniuk's Lullaby, which I'm jazzed about
reading. And By the Shores of Gitchee Gumee, by Tama Janowitz.
I keep reading her books, and I don't know why. She's got a style
that both repels and attracts me. I think I stay with them because
they're so dialogue-heavy, which I tend to like, but she cakes
every word with so much metaphorical grime it's like I want to
take a bath afterwards.
Anyway, have a lovely weekend!
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